So today, there were 4 registered pieces of mail (all the same thing) that is telling us our home is in default and when it goes to a foreclosure sale, we will be notified and told how many days we have to get out. Now if we come up with all the defaulted amount due, we can stay and pay exorbitant payments. and taxes.... and we can't pay any of it.
I am looking around at my 'old' friend here, our house where we have been sheltered for almost eight years. I am trying to be brave and rational and seriously hoping to keep from crawling into bed in the fetal position and never getting up again.
Usually, when we have moved, it has been to a better situation. I can think of a couple times that wasn't so, but usually....... Since this house was our 23rd move, it isn't about the exhausting job that moving is about. That is a whole other story. And yes, we didn't build this to stay here forever. It was to be an 'investment' and someday it would reward us with equity that we could live on when we retired. That was the general idea, but like all good ideas, they don't always work.
So I will use this 'journal' to post my feelings now and then and try to keep my sanity....
think it's a good idea to have a sounding board, a place where you can store your thoughts and feelings. And maybe, just maybe, things won't turn out as they seem like they will right now. Life is so unpredictable. Hoopless is better than Hopeless.
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